Who Called You? (from D is for Demons)

Dona Fox

Aunt Tillie’s house was a gorgeous gray Queen Anne with hideous green trim. I felt a lustful pride of ownership that I immediately tried to tamp down. Dark ivy crept up to the house and edged the stone stairway. A giant rat ran out from beneath the ivy’s low cover and directly across my path. I told myself that it wasn’t bad luck, a rat was hardly a black cat. I straightened my back and marched bravely up the steps.

My boxes had been delivered earlier, or so I hoped, as I did not see them on the porch. I carried only two large suitcases with my immediate necessities. Despite my lack of a magic umbrella, I felt somewhat like Mary Poppins.

I rang the bell first so as not to scare the children, then I tried the knob, excellent, the door was locked as it should be. I fit my key into the lock and entered the house. Immediately, I felt dizzy.

I needed air. I fumbled for the knob behind me.

But once I’d gone in the door, I found I couldn’t go back out, partly because the knob simply wouldn’t turn but mostly because I couldn’t leave the three dear children that stood immediately before me.

Though I’d never seen them before, they were my cousins, and as they were much younger than I, on her death, Aunt Tillie had entrusted their care to me, along with the house, and her cat.

To clarify, I understood that two of them were my cousins, I had no idea who the other child could be. And, never having seen them before, I had no idea which of them was not my cousin. To further complicate matters, two gray cats, not the single cat mentioned in Aunt Tillie’s will, circled around my ankles.

I dropped my luggage. The cases must have landed on one of the cats, it hissed and howled and bit my ankle; then they both raced up the staircase their little feet pounding on each step to match the staccato in my chest as the adrenaline coursed through the chambers of my heart. Blood ran from two fresh gashes on my leg.

“I need to sit down.” I reached for the children, hoping they would steady me, perhaps lead me to a chair. Still staring into my face, not even looking down at my wound, they backed away. I staggered through to the back of the house, where I found the kitchen. I wet a dish towel and tied it around my ankle; then, I soaked and squeezed out a dishrag and fell into a retro plastic chair at the Formica-topped table.

I put the dishrag on my forehead. It smelled like a dead rat, so I threw it back across the room into the sink.

My phone rang in my pocket.

“Yes?” I said as if I’d grabbed a lifeline.

“Tab, is it you? You sound different.” It was my best friend, Mary.

“Oh, my goodness, it’s so good to hear your voice. You wouldn’t believe what I’ve walked into here. I need reinforcements. Come quick,” I blathered.

“Tab, is it you? You sound different,” Mary’s voice repeated.

“Mary? Can you hear me? It is me. This is Tab,” I shouted into the phone.

“Tab, is it you? You sound different.” No matter what I said, Mary’s voice repeated the same phrase over and over again. Finally, I hung up and tried calling her back. I got that horrible sound you get when a fax machine connects.

I tried everyone in my contact list and finally the number for an emergency, all with the same result—that horrible high screech in my ear.

And the three children, not two as there should have been, stood in the doorway and stared at me.

“Alright, it’s time for you to go home now.” I tried not to look at any one child. “Playtime is over, it’s time for just our family to be alone, we have, ah, family matters to discuss. Please go home now, you can come back tomorrow.”

None of the children made a move to leave.

I stood up, put my hands on my hips, and stared down at them, “Okay, now. Which one of you is not Aunt Tillie’s child?” Slowly they lifted their faces until they were all three staring solemnly into my face again. This was getting me nowhere, but I had an idea.

I circled around the children and darted about the rooms in the front of the house. Surely there would be family pictures showing off the children, standing with the awards for their accomplishments, in the living room, the dining room, or the study. No, not one photo. I searched the drawers of the desk – except for the one that was locked, I’d explore that one later.

The children stood in the study doorway as I finished. I skirted around the dears, careful not to brush against them. For some reason, I abhorred the thought of touching these silent children.

Failing to spot a light switch, I started to run up the dark staircase when finally, I heard a child’s high, thin voice, “The stairs are broken, use Aunt Tillie’s elevator.”

I felt cold fingers grasp my wrist and guide me back down and to the side. Then I heard the creaking of metal, the grinding of gears, and a door sliding open. I was pushed by those same small fingers, and once again, I heard the door slide, the grinding and creaking. Then the elevator stopped. I felt the walls. I was trapped. All four walls around me were solid. I couldn’t breathe. The children had tricked me.

“Push the door open.” The high, thin voice again, followed by several voices united in breathless giggles.

I felt the walls again, pushing each one until finally, one gave. Then I was out, and I could breathe again.

I walked down the darkened hallway, watching out for dark shapes on the floor that might be the sharp-toothed cats or dark shapes pressed against the walls that could be my giggling cousins – or the one that isn’t.

Then I felt along the walls, opened all the doors, and fumbled for more light switches all to no avail. Was it possible the only way to turn on the lights in this house could be by chains hanging from the fixtures in the ceilings at the center of every room?

Placing each foot carefully lest I step on or trip over a cat or other random object, perhaps pushed into my path by a mischievous cousin, I held one arm up. I waved it through the air at the ceiling as I walked toward what I believed was the middle of the first room.

They let me do this for three rooms.

In the third room, they pushed me into a closet and slammed the door.

I heard them arguing outside.

“I said the balcony,” one said in a husky whisper.

“No. We can’t do that; we need Cousin Tab alive,” the somewhat natural child’s voice replied.

“Just push her off the balcony, I’ll take care of you,” the first, the husky voice, said.

“Oh, no, please, no.” It was the high, thin voice. My savior from the stairs, my little friend of the elevator, cried. “Don’t do that.”

So that was the three, if they’d speak, I could tell them apart. So here I was in the closet and glad of it, who knows what a fall from the balcony might have entailed.

I was sure the husky whisperer didn’t belong here, and the cat that bit me should go home too.

They pulled me from the closet and tied me to a chair in front of a mirror.

Then I noticed I was sitting in the center of a pentagram surrounded by lit candles. A butcher knife lay at my feet.

The children were sitting cross-legged outside the circle, chanting. Their faces remained hidden in dark hoodies.

“Stop it! Stop it! Be quiet already. What do you think you’re doing?” I was very uncomfortable with this situation.

The children, three, where there should have been two, looked up, and I could see their little round faces in the light. The candles reflected in their eyes, and they looked like polaroid snapshots where everyone’s eyes are bright red like demons.

“Untie me, blow out those candles. What if those cats come in here and tip the candles over? Blow them out immediately.” It was as if they didn’t hear a word I said, so I screamed, “Untie me! Blow the candles out! Scatter this pentagram! What do you think you’re doing! You don’t know what you’re doing. Stop this foolishness. Right now.”

“We can’t. Bendix told us what you did,” the one with the most normal child-like voice said.

“What? What did I do?” I was beginning to feel cornered.

“You summoned him to kill Aunt Tillie so you could have her money and her house,” the normal voice said.

“No, I didn’t.” I squirmed in the chair.

“Yes, you did,” Husky voice challenged me.

“How would you know?” I began to feel cocky as I had been working the bonds on my hands, and they were quite loose now.

“I’m Bendix.” His voice seemed to deepen.

“So, you’re confessing to killing Aunt Tillie?” I felt kind of bright, outsmarting the child at his own game. The cats strutted into the room.

His laughter shook the house, “No. I made a deal with her instead.”

“You kids are just too silly. This has been fun; we’ll play it again someday. Untie me now, and we’ll go out to dinner. Hamburgers? Pizza? Anything you like.”

“No. I’m sorry,” the sweet one with the thin, little voice came toward me with the butcher knife, “we just need a little of your blood.”

“Get a lot.” Husky voice really had it in for me.

“Okay. Stop. What deal did you make with Aunt Tillie? I can do better. It’s true, it’s all true.” I’d play their game a little longer.

Apparently, the sweet one was surprised at my admission. Of course, she hadn’t actually believed that I had made Bendix kill Aunt Tillie, but I sounded so convincing, she dropped the knife.

As the blade hit the floor, it displaced enough of the pentagram to make a small opening in the circle. None of them, not even the demon Bendix, had noticed that I had freed my hands. I jumped up and dashed through the opening, kicking cats and candles out of my way. Now it didn’t matter what deal he’d made with Aunt Tillie, and I didn’t want the house or her money any longer, I just wanted out of here, away from these wild knife-wielding children.

I wasn’t getting in that creaky elevator again; I didn’t trust them. Children like these might stop the lift and keep me pinned in there until I starved to death. And I wasn’t wandering from room to room in the dark looking for a way out until they pushed me off the balcony.

All I wanted now was to get out of this house alive. I didn’t believe that the stairs weren’t safe. I’d heard the cats’ little feet bound up them step by step. I’d take the stairs; I’d just be careful. It was an unfortunate choice.

I grasped the railing and tapped each stair before I put my weight on it, but my legs were shaking, unsteady, and I was easy game for the children when they ran down the steps behind me and pushed me once again.

I tumbled down the stairs, then I grabbed a shaky baluster and righted myself thinking, Ha! I’ve outwitted the little vermin.

As I put my full weight on the tread, I felt it begin to totter up and down beneath and into the riser above it, then I heard the stringer separate from the wall. I flailed my arms as I heard nails squealing as they tore from wood, old lathe splitting, and plaster crumbling on top of it all.

I fell through the staircase as if I were a piece of meat in a butcher shop, the splintered wood sliced my hips and my legs leaving gashes and long sticky gouges that didn’t even hurt, at first.

The cold, wet cement floor of the basement felt good on my cuts and bruises. Again, that was only temporary abeyance of the pain to come. I lay, unmoving, knowing that with movement, this welcome lack of sensation might change. Then I heard a low hissing and ominous gurgling.

I held my breath and listened carefully. It seemed to be a living thing.

The sounds, its breath.

The floor was growing colder and harder, and I was beginning to feel my pain, but I dared not move.

Then it began shuffling around the edges of the basement, sniffling, as if it could not see me nor detect my presence. I kept my breath shallow and quiet.

It was making circles around the basement floor, drawing closer to me with every loop. Soon it would be upon me. I tried to rise. I winced. My chest. If a bone was poking through my lungs, I shouldn’t move, but what choice did I have?

The creature was right above me now. It looked like a log in the fire when it’s almost spent, charcoal with orange embers beneath. Drool of orange embers fell from its mouth onto my body. Each spark burned hotter than ashes, yet I dared not start nor call out. Its eyes were the thinnest of dark slits, no wonder it couldn’t see me. Fingernails like hot, sharp knives fanned through the air.

“I know you’re there. It takes a demon to know one.” It was trying to call me out. Playground taunts wouldn’t work on me. I could outlast it. I pictured myself next week, sipping a margarita in the sand while I got a tan under a Caribbean sun.

Wait, that light wasn’t a Caribbean sun. I opened my eyes. The children were shining a flashlight down through the hole in the stairs directly onto my body.

I intended to hold my arm in the direction of the light and block it with my outstretched hand as I yelled, “Stop!” then I would jump up and knock the demon on his keister while looking for the basement stairs up which I would beat a hasty retreat.

Actually, I raised my elbow an inch off the floor, mumbled “Stup.” Wiggled my body like a caterpillar stuck in a cobweb and started to cry. The demon growled and blew hot air up the hole in the floor at the children. I could hear them as they ran away, screaming. 

I waited in the dark.

Then I felt his hands on me as if he were trying to discover precisely what I was, what use I might be to him. Food, perhaps? He licked my face tentatively. He ran a finger through the blood on my leg. Twice. I think he liked the taste. Not a good sign.

“You’re a demon, like me?” he finally asked.

What was the right answer? If I said yes, would we be pals, or would we have to fight to the death for the territory? Should I throw the children to the wolves, so to speak, as our mutual enemies? Well, that Bendix, for sure, he didn’t belong. And that extra cat. What was going on with that? Finally, I decided to answer a question with a question, it always drove my best friend Mary mad, maybe it would work with a demon.

“Who called you here?” I replied in response to his question.

“What?”

“I said, who called you here?” I wasn’t going to change the question or elaborate, he seemed kind of dull, I didn’t want to confuse him.

“You can’t just show up, someone has to call you, right?” I said.

And he knocked me across the basement. The far wall, the one I landed against, was brick. I slid down the wall like a cartoon character. Then I smelled cigarette smoke.

“Listen, kid, I go where I want to go, and I do what I want to do, and you’re beginning to piss me off.” I heard leather shoes slapping against the cement floor then the tapping of those same leather soles right by my face. Apparently, he’d changed a lot. He wasn’t so dumb anymore. “You saw my soft side; now I’m through being Mr. Nice Guy.” And he kicked my cheekbone; he kicked me in the face. This wasn’t so funny now.

“You’re no demon,” he said. “What are you up to, anyway? I smelled a demon in this house.”

“Okay, let’s talk. I think there’s a demon here, too. Or at the least someone’s made a deal with the devil. But I don’t want to make any deals. What’s in this for you, anyway?” I asked.

“We don’t like fakes, it makes us look bad, cheapens our image.” He threw the cigarette down on the floor and stomped it out. “There’s a fake here, but there’s also the real deal.”

“Well, maybe the real deal is you,” I suggested.

“Yeah, maybe and maybe not. Help me get upstairs,” he said, his voice full of suave smiles that I couldn’t see in the dark.

“Can’t you just go up there?” I asked.

He sighed. “You must not be the demon; you don’t understand the simplest thing. No, I cannot. You have to go up there and call me. Just do it.”

“Okay. Yeah. I’ll do it.” I guess he was still quite dull. “Where’s the steps?”

He threw cinders and made a path to the basement stairs, “Hurry, don’t make me have to do that again.”

“Sure, I’m gone.” I fought my pain as I dug my nails into the brick wall to pull myself up, then I threw myself across the room and landed on the steps. I scuttled like an injured crab up the steps, shouting, “Kids! You guys up there, open the basement door I’m coming up!”

Of course, I didn’t hear their feet on the floor, rushing to rescue me, not those kids. But when I got to the top step and threw my body against the door, it fell open. As I lay on the oily linoleum floor of Aunt Tillie’s kitchen, recovering, my phone rang.

I answered it out of habit. “She left you a letter in the top drawer of her desk.” It was the one with the typical kid’s voice. The way these things worked in the movies, she was probably the demon. Trust no one, that was my motto now. But I’d look for the letter in the desk drawer anyway, what could it hurt?

I grabbed hold of one of the retro kitchen chairs and pulled myself up. I’d hang over the back and use it to get myself into the study. But first, I pulled every kitchen drawer open until I found a suitable knife for picking the locked drawer. Not knowing anything about how such things worked, I settled on both a small pointy knife and a large butcher knife in case I had to use brute force.

I put the small knife in my pocket and held the butcher knife down onto the seat of the chair. Then I scooted the chair across the linoleum, bounced over the threshold onto the polished wood of the hallway, and turned into the heavily carpeted study. There I crawled to the desk, holding both knives in my fists.

I felt the top of the desk until I found a candle in its holder with matches close by, lit it, and set it down on the chair. From my vantage point on the floor, I saw that the lock on the drawer was thick, heavy metal as opposed to the bottom of the drawer, which was made from sheets of fragile wood.

I grabbed the butcher knife and rammed it into the lower part of the drawer at all the sides repeatedly until the bottom fell out along with a single white envelope.

The envelope was, of course, addressed to me. I tore it open.

My dear Tab,

Please forgive me for any trouble that I am causing you, but I must think of my children first, and I know that you are up to this task. I remember you as full of strength and independence.

I have done a horrible thing. I succumbed to the weakness in my flesh. I hadn’t had a man since before my youngest was born. I often looked at myself in the mirror and thought about how my youth was not gone but was going to waste as a beautiful flower that dies in the vase with no one to appreciate it. I’m afraid I must have called my demon in those times when I stared into the mirror, feeling sorry for myself.

When he came to me in the night, I was startled at first, but he knew how to dispel my fears and make me feel wanted again. But enough of that, there’s so much more.

We actually married in the church. Not with a pastor. Oh no. We snuck into the church at midnight and performed our own vows. And we had a child together. Not an average child.

I blush even as I write this. That child must die, and that demon must be purged from my house. He isn’t as smart as he thinks, he let it slip one night, the secret of how to expunge him from my house forever.

You may think I’m asking you to become a criminal. Well, it’s true, I am. A criminal of the worst sort.

Go burn down that church, Tab. Three blocks from my house. You can see the spire from the sidewalk out front. It’s the only one you can see from there. Make sure Pastor Martin gets out, he’s not a bad man. But if he burns, he will not go to hell.

I have no more time.

Love, Aunt Tillie

After what I’d been through since I walked across the threshold of Aunt Tillie’s house, her letter was not outrageous. Anyway, if I did what she asked, what could it hurt?

I grabbed the candle and the matches off the chair. As I stood, I realized I’d been down too long, I need to keep moving.

If I let the pain take over, I’d stiffen and be unable to move at all. I needed to pretend it wasn’t pain but rather cold. I told myself I wasn’t feeling pain, but rather ice against my skin, a little mind trick on myself I’d often used before. Not pain, but cold. I was not in pain, not at all, I was just cold, and I needed to keep moving. I stood up straight and headed for the door.

“Cousin Tab!”

“Wait!”

“Stop. Where are you going?”

Now the children were talking to me. I ignored them and grabbed the doorknob with purpose this time. I twisted it, and it turned. I pulled, and the door opened. The children gasped.

On the sidewalk, I turned until I saw the spire. Then I wasted no time getting to the church; after all, it was just three blocks, and I needed to keep moving.

An old man was kneeling on one knee beneath the camellias beside the church, putting dead flowers into a woven basket. He’d also made a pile of clippings and dry branches that might be convenient for my purposes.

“Are you Pastor Martin?” I asked.

“Why, yes. How may I help you, child?” He looked at me and smiled.

“An old woman is sitting on some steps a few blocks down the street with a bag of groceries. She seems quite winded, and some boys were lurking about. She said, could I have Pastor Martin come and see to her,” I lied.

“Of course. That would Mrs. Wooten.” He stood up slowly and brushed off his knees, then he put his hands on his back and stretched. “I’d best hurry, she gets confused. Thank you, dear.” He walked briskly down the street.

The church was open. I went inside and down to the basement to reconnoiter. There was a pile of boxes, cleaning supplies, and holiday decorations. Of course, under all that was the furnace. This was going to be easy. I pushed some of the pile aside and opened the furnace door.

I could already smell a leak in the fuel line. I patted my pockets. Ah, I still had the small knife. I poked some more holes in the leaky fuel line then I got as far away as I thought my throwing arm could manage, I lit a match to a holiday decoration and tossed it, then I ran up the basement stairs and out the door.

I was amazed when the church blew up.

I prayed for forgiveness all the way back to Aunt Tillie’s house.

Even more so now, I felt a lustful pride of ownership in the house that I saw no reason to tamp down. This time I didn’t ring the bell so as not to scare the children, though a little scare might do them good.

The door wasn’t locked.

Two children stood before me. Yes, I’d seen these two before, so these were my cousins, I’d rather miss the little demon with the sweet voice, but of course, she was too good to be true. And here was the cat that had bitten me, it was the real cat, of course.

My phone rang in my pocket. Once again, I answered it automatically. Maybe it was the sweet-voiced demon cousin, calling to say goodbye.

“Yes?” I answered.

“Tab, is it you? You sound different.” Of course, it was the voice of my best friend once again.

“Mary?” I ventured.

“Yes, Tab. Where are you?” It was really Mary this time, what a relief. I gave her Aunt Tillie’s address, and she agreed to come immediately because that’s what best friends do.

“And, Mary, bring wine,” I said in parting.

“I’ll bring tons,” she promised with a laugh, then she hung up.

The old house creaked. Its cold, dry chuckle brought back my uneasiness. I had to wonder if the demon or demons were really gone or if they had just tricked me into burning down the closest church. If so, what might they do next?

I made sure the basement door was locked. Mary should be here soon.

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Pigpen (from C is for Cannibals)

Aisling Campbell

Donna handed the bowl of scraps to her eldest daughter.

“Careful you don’t drop that now.”

“Don’t worry Mommy, I got it,” Cayleigh said, and Donna watched as arms, which seemed like only yesterday to have been wrapped in baby fat, juggled with the blue ceramic bowl. The thing must have been a whole quarter of her size, but she managed it. Her little sister — and there were the chubby, baby arms Donna remembered — watched, wide-eyed, with her thumb in her mouth.

“Careful there, don’t run,” Donna called as the girls scampered out past the screen door, on their way to the pigpen.

She watched them through the window, shooing the chickens out of the way as they wove their way over the dusty ground. The pigpen had been built in the shade of a pair of oak trees, but she still had a clear view of the front of it from her kitchen window. She could keep an eye on her daughters, even as they tipped the scraps over the fence.

The girls loved the pigs — they’d been told several times that they were for eating, but still they’d sulk when one of their favorites went to slaughter. Well, mostly it was Cayleigh doing the sulking — Crystal just copied her sister.

She heard Brett’s truck pulling in and the front door opening.

“Hey, handsome,” she said, when he wrapped his arms around her waist and squeezed her tight. His stubble rasped across her neck as he kissed it.

“Hey there, beautiful.”

“Gonna do a pot roast with that leftover brisket. You good with that?” He hummed in agreement, almost a purr, hands slipping over her hips.

“Good hunt, I take it?” she asked.

Again, he hummed, fingers working at the fastenings on her jeans. He’d take her right there in the kitchen if she let him.

The screen door slammed open, startling Brett’s hands back into a more innocent position on her hips.

“Mommy! We got to stroke Princess 2! She come right on up to the fence an’ I stuck my hand in and…”

Cayleigh was beaming, chest puffed out like a little rooster, cradling the now empty bowl, her sister tottering along close behind.

“Did you now?” Brett said, taking the bowl and setting it on the counter before scooping up his daughters — one in each arm — and giving them each a kiss.

Donna knew he didn’t exactly approve of the girls giving the pigs names. And there’d certainly been tears when the original Princess had reached her time. Lots of tears followed by a hunger-strike and a vow to never eat meat again, until Donna had finally sat Cayleigh down for a talk.

She told her that the meat was Princess’s gift to them — that it was cruel to refuse it, to let it go to waste. Cruel to let the pigs remain in their pens, toughening over the years, before succumbing to illness, to old age.

“They’re animals. It’s what they were meant to be,” Donna had said. And, at their next meal, Cayleigh had cleaned her plate and asked for seconds.

“Make sure you wash your hands,” Donna reminded. “How ‘bout you Crystal? Did you get to stroke a piggy too?”

The little girl nodded, holding up her hands like Donna would be able to see the evidence herself.

“Okay, to the sink then.”

Brett leaned over the kitchen sink, still holding the girls as they washed their hands with soap and water. He laughed as they wiped their hands on his shirt, depositing them both back on the ground with such care as if he were handling the finest porcelain. It always delighted Donna to see how gentle he could be, how he knew exactly when to temper that Samson-like strength.

To her relief the girls immediately darted for the door again, heading on outside to the jungle gym Brett had made for them.

She turned back to her husband, standing on her tiptoes to give him a quick peck on the lips — chaste, innocent. The hand fumbling with his belt loop was anything but though. She untucked his shirt, felt his skin and the thick hair over his stomach.

There was a thud from outside — not the backyard, but up front where Brett had parked his truck.

“Goddamnit,” Brett muttered. “Sorry baby, I gotta go deal with that.”

“No problem, we’ll pick this up later. I’ll bring you out a cold drink and something to eat in a bit.”

He smiled down at her with such love it took her breath away. It made a bubble of pride swell in her chest. I did that!The one good thing besides her daughters that she’d managed to create.

“Thanks, babe.”

He squeezed her tight, but not too tight. Just right.

“Hey, you show that sow who’s boss!” she said, as he let go.

***

Donna went to the living room window and watched her husband wrestle a bound, leggy blonde from the truck bed and march her over to the barn.

She’d asked him once why it was that he only brought home females, never males, and Brett had blushed and kinda stammered that they were easier to catch and control. Donna wasn’t sure whether she believed that. She’d seen plenty of guys Brett could have picked up and tossed in the back of the truck no trouble.

It was fine, she’d decided, if he was attracted to them. But if the horny state he came home in was any indication, he certainly wasn’t getting his rocks off in the back of the truck with them. Besides, once they made it into the barn, they were pigs. Just meat which hadn’t realised it yet.

***

The girls came to help with hanging out the laundry. Cayleigh handed her clothes, while Crystal was in charge of the pegs. Donna brought both of them inside and gave them a cookie from the jar.

They scarfed them down and then they were off again; bare-foot forces of nature whirling through the yard.

Cayleigh picked up a stick and started drawing in the dust. Her sister copied her, and then both of them were scoring swirling lines into the dirt, giggling and laughing.

It still amazed Donna how much fun they seemed to have all on their own — in her house growing up the phrase ‘go watch TV’ had been her mom’s mantra. Like the TV would do the job of raising three kids for her while she smoked and got fat.

Donna remembered when she found out she was pregnant with Cayleigh she’d just burst into tears, wailing that she didn’t know what to do. Brett had calmed her down, told her to trust herself. When the baby came, she’d know what it needed. She’d be a great mom.

And it was true. When Donna had finished panting and looked down between her legs at the tiny, red-faced little creature lying on the bloodied towel she’d felt a change. Like the world had just shifted and this tiny being was the pivot.

It was just natural.

One day the girls would start asking questions, and Donna would have to deal with that. The lack of TV would slow the process, but a child’s curiosity couldn’t be kept at bay forever.

Donna had asked Brett how his father had explained it all to him — the food chain and their particular place in it — but he’d shaken his head.

“Not his way. Never his way.”

Donna trusted him that he knew what to do, like he always knew.

***

She made the girls lunch meat sandwiches and, while they ate, she put together a tray to take out to the barn.

It usually took Brett most of a day to process a new sow, and after that he had to keep a close eye on them for another week while the wounds healed up before they could go into the pen. He’d gotten pretty good at it, and it had been a few years since they’d lost a sow to infection.

Alongside the sandwiches she added a pitcher of iced tea and some jerky.

“Mommy, can we hose down the pigs?” Cayleigh asked, tugging at Donna’s jeans.

“Uh-uh sweetie, I don’t think you’re big enough to handle the hose all by yourself. But you can help Mommy do it — just let me take this out to Daddy and I’ll meet you at the pen.”

Cayleigh had started to pout at the refusal but perked up at the second half of that sentence.

“Okay Mommy!” she said, darting out the door, leaving Crystal to scurry after her.

The way now clear, Donna picked up the tray and headed to the barn.

***

The barn wasn’t really a barn — it had been, several generations ago, but Brett’s grandfather had modified it to use it as a slaughterhouse and butcher shop when the family’s attention turned less from general farming to just meat.

Brett’s father had added a walk-in freezer for additional storage, but Brett had made the most recent additions — a surgery room for processing and a recovery room for afterwards.

It was hard work, but worth it in the long run.

In the pen they could control their animals’ diet, allow any drugs or toxins to be flushed out naturally, and slaughter as they needed to. Brett could plan his hunts better and there was less pressure to bring home a catch every time.

Donna had jokingly suggested Brett bring home a stud, try raising some piglets of their own, but it just wasn’t feasible. Assuming they even managed to breed one sow, and that the pregnancy and delivery all went smoothly, they’d still have to wait fifteen years to have a decent size pig for butchery.

Donna slid open the barn door with her foot.

“Brett!” she called. “I got food.”

Enough time had passed that he should be through with any tricky bits, but it didn’t hurt to announce her presence.

The processing room was through to her right, and she could hear the buzz of the saw running.

“Brett?” she called again, shifting her grip on the tray as she moved to avoid one of the meat hooks hanging from the ceiling.

She kept telling Brett he should tidy up. Most of the hooks and chains hanging from the ceiling hadn’t been used in years. Brett had bought and installed a bunch of modern butcher equipment, leaving the majority of his father’s things to rust.

The saw was still going even as she approached the door and knocked.

She wasn’t supposed to go into the room — Brett tried to keep it as clean as possible, to prevent infection, and apparently her opening the door while he was working could bring infection in.

She knocked again, calling his name a little louder.

Still the saw kept running.

Donna tried the door handle.

***

The room was empty, the table in the middle bare. No Brett, no pig. But there was blood — big drops of it on the shining metal of the table.

“Brett?”

She looked around for the saw, still thrumming away, and spotted the white plastic of an electrical cable disappearing around the far side of the table. She put the tray down, and she walked, slow like she was wading through molasses. Or maybe it was her mind that was going slow. Trying to stall, to slam on the brakes.

She rounded the edge of the table and looked down at her husband.

***

Brett had been first in everything that mattered. First love, first kiss. First to get her, to understand.

It had bothered her a little that he hadn’t been her first, especially after she learned she had been his. She’d broken down, told him about her mom’s boyfriend and his wandering hands, the cruel words, bruises where no one would see. Told him that was why she’d run, why she’d been out here looking for shelter.

Donna could remember every detail of the moment they’d met. Could remember standing in this barn, wet-through from the rain, looking up at a freshly split carcass.

She remembered the horror, as the shape made sense. And then the peace.

Headless, handless, identity-less. Donna had felt envy. Here was someone who didn’t have to look in the mirror, feel the self-disgust and loathing every time. No, whoever this was was perfect — pared down to just the meat on her bones. Raw substance, no soul, no feelings.

So, when she heard the footsteps behind her, when she turned and saw the handsome boy holding a hammer, she’d smiled.

Brett told her later he thought she was nuts at first. His grip on the hammer had trembled and something in him had rebelled. Had told him it would be a mistake to bludgeon this strange, smiling girl to death.

He’d had to hide her.

If his father had found her, he’d have slit her throat and strung her up to bleed out almost as soon as look at her. At first Donna hadn’t cared, thought about walking out into the yard, offering herself. She wanted to be clean, like the girl hanging from the hook.

But there had been Brett.

They talked, they touched, they kissed. It didn’t take long before they made love too. His technique had been pretty lacking, but he’d actually wanted to make her feel good too which was another first. There was something in his eyes that called to her. It was like a radio signal, bouncing back and forth between them. Their frequencies just fit.

***

She was shaking as she knelt by her husband’s head. Blood soaked into her jeans, touched her skin even as she reached out and touched his hair.

There was no point checking for a pulse.

Donna looked for the saw and found it under the table, still covered in Brett’s blood. She switched it off, and then she finally heard the moan. Felt it in her chest, low and animal, the noise she was making.

Brett’s face was cold. It must have happened before he’d had a chance to knock the girl out with the gas. Maybe he hadn’t restrained her properly – somehow, she’d got loose. And done this.

She used the table to haul herself up. Her legs were shaking so bad she thought she’d fall, land face-first on her husband’s corpse.

The smell hadn’t hit her at first — the copper scent of blood was so familiar it didn’t bother her, but the stink of crap from shredded bowels was less so. She looked down at the messy cuts — the saw had sliced through the muscles and into the abdominal cavity. Ripped his guts apart. Sloppy, shoddy work. If Donna had treated a pig like that Brett would’ve been so mad that he wouldn’t’ve spoken to her for a week.

Ruined. That bitch had ruined him.

Tears stung her eyes as she walked around the table, away from Brett’s body. She stumbled over the lip of the door, had to hold onto the frame for a few moments until the ringing in her head stopped.

What am I gonna do?

Cayleigh and Crystal. Her daughters’ faces sprung up in her mind so strongly it was like they’d been put there by something else — something outside herself.

That bitch-pig was still out there, and Donna’s children were too.

She staggered over to the countertop and looked at the knives, picking up one of the skinning blades. Brett’s skinning blade.

She gripped it tight and headed to the barn door.

***

It felt like things outside should have changed — for the sky to be dark with rain clouds, or the bitch to be standing there waiting — but it was still the same bright, summer day it had been.

The pen. Donna had told the girls to meet her at the pen.

Her knees still felt weak, and she could see Brett lying there every time she blinked.

If that bitch hurt her babies…if she did that Donna would…would…

The girls weren’t by the pen. Donna ran up and leaned over the fence. The pigs were there, all six of them, staring back at her and smiling.

“Where are they?” she snarled, breaking one of the rules. You didn’t talk to them like they could answer, like they were still human.

The smiles dropped from a few faces, but one, a redhead, tipped her head to the side and shrugged. Donna knew that look. The peace and resignation which came with knowing there was nowhere further down you could go. When the knife came to rest against her throat it would be like a prayer being answered.

Donna pushed away from the fence and headed back towards the house. She glanced up front and saw the truck was still there. If the sow had made a run for it on foot, she wasn’t likely to get far. There were lines of traps set up all around the property as well as a razor wire fence.

She heard a thump from somewhere in the house.

“Girls?” she called, praying they would come to her. She glanced around the kitchen and saw a knife missing from the block, saw smudges of blood on the counter.

She jumped out of the way as the cupboard door under the sink swung open. She crouched down, and Crystal flew into her arms, shaking like she’d been dunked in ice-water.

“Baby, are you okay?” she asked, her hands flying over her head and arms, checking for marks. “Are you hurt?”

She looked back at the cupboard, hoping to see Cayleigh crouched behind her, but it was empty — just bottles of bleach and cleaning supplies.

“Where’s your sister? Crystal, sweetie, where’s your sister?”

Crystal had been silent up to this point, probably too scared to make a sound, but now she began to cry. She pointed upstairs, and Donna managed to translate the baby-talk.

A monster had her sister. It had taken her upstairs.

“Okay, okay,” Donna said, running her hands over Crystal’s head, soothing her. Stray smears of blood now marked her hair, and Donna would have to make her take a bath after all this. “You just stay here now. Hide. I’ll be back soon, okay?”

Crystal didn’t want to let go, but Donna insisted.

“Just stay here. Shh. Shh. It’ll be okay.”

She shut the cupboard door and padded around the kitchen table and out into the hall. She moved quickly, as quiet as she could manage, listening as she climbed the stairs. There were muffled voices, Donna recognised the voice of her eldest daughter, coming from the direction of the bathroom.

Donna tried the door, already knowing that the latch would be on. It rattled but stayed stiff in the frame.

“Mommy!”

“Cayleigh, sweetie, are you alright? Did she hurt you?”

“I called the police!” another voice answered. Donna’s grip tightened on the knife. She longed to kick the door down, but it was solid wood and she’d be more likely to end up with a busted foot than a busted door — she just wasn’t strong enough.

“You’re sick. How can you–Oh god. They’re people, not animals! A-and you…you’re…”

“Monsters?” Donna suggested. “You’re gonna find out just how much of a monster I am if you’ve hurt one hair on my daughter’s head.”

But first she needed to find something to break down the goddamn door.

***

There was an axe in the barn. She slipped the knife through two of her belt loops and hurried down the stairs. The cupboard door opened, and she had to usher Crystal back inside, tell her the monster wasn’t gone just yet. But Mommy would get rid of it soon.

When she came back with the axe in hand she glanced at the phone in its cradle on the wall. There were bloody fingerprints on the handset and the wall, and any hope that the sow was bluffing crumbled. But she didn’t know the address, she didn’t know where she was — and maybe the police would be able to trace her but it would take them time to drive out here, time to find the place, to make it past the fences and the traps.

***

Cayleigh was sobbing when Donna made it back to the door.

“I’m coming, just hang on sweetie.”

“I called the police!” the sow shrieked again, like it was some sort of magic charm that people like Donna were supposed to flee from — like vampires from the sun.

“Well, the cops aren’t here!” Donna said and took the first swing.

The axe-head sunk deep into the wood, and both the sow and Cayleigh screamed.

“It’s okay, it’s okay. Just stay back from the door, honey.”

Donna managed to wrench the axe free, pulled back and swung again, aiming for the same spot.

Three more strikes and she could see through, could see the blonde sow-bitch who’d killed her husband cowering next to the toilet with Cayleigh held tight in front of her.

The sow pulled out the knife she’d stolen.

“You hurt her and I’ll make you eat your own guts,” Donna snarled, using the blunt side of the axe to knock out more of the wood, enough of an opening to try to reach through for the latch.

The sow tried to scoot forward, to slash at Donna’s arm, but Cayleigh wouldn’t let her move.

“Noo! Don’t hurt my mommy!”

Donna finally got the door open, kicking aside shards of wood as she stepped into the bathroom.

“Y–you cannibal freak…I told your daughter what you really are. You eat people! Stay away! Stay away from me or I’ll…”

But her hand trembled on the knife. Bloody hands which had left bloody handprints all over Cayleigh’s clothes and arms.

Before the sow could untangle herself from the child Donna swung the axe. She hit her with the blunt end, snapping her head to the side and ramming it into the cistern. It busted her nose in a bright spray of blood.

Donna pulled her sobbing daughter out of the way, reaching in to grab the knife away from the stunned pig. She grabbed a handful of blonde hair, wrenching the sow’s head back. She held a hand over her mouth, enough to check she was still breathing.

She made sure the axe and the knife were both out of reach before she turned and gathered Cayleigh up into a hug.

“It’s alright, shh, it’s alright now.”

She wanted to remember this. Remember what it felt like to hold her daughter in her arms, would have to imagine how it would feel in one, two, five or ten years.

Donna finally let go, cupping Cayleigh’s reddened face in her hands. She glanced around at the sow, still out cold.

“Daddy…I want Daddy!” Cayleigh moaned.

“Oh, baby, I’m…Daddy’s not…Daddy’s not coming back. He’s gone.”

Cayleigh frowned.

“W-where?”

Donna hugged her again, wishing she didn’t have to explain this.

“Somewhere he can’t come back from. And it’s…it’s her fault. She sent your daddy away, and I’m gonna punish her for it, but I need to be quick before she wakes up.”

“Daddy…”

Donna pulled away again with an apology, as the sow’s eyelids were starting to flicker. She picked up the kitchen knife and sliced through the sow’s top, tearing it into strips and tying it around her wrists and ankles.

Cayleigh sniffed.

“What’re you doing?”

“I told you, I need to punish her for hurting your daddy.” She finished off the last knot and glanced at her daughter. “Want to help?”

***

Together they dragged the pig down the stairs. Donna did the heavy lifting, while Cayleigh followed and tried to make sure her head didn’t hit the stairs on the way down.

“We don’t want her brains getting all mashed up. If she gets too stupid, she won’t be able to understand what we’re doing.”

They got Crystal out from her hiding place. She giggled and poked the ‘monster’ in the chest, and then she followed them out across the yard and to the barn.

Donna didn’t tell her about her daddy, knowing she would understand it even less than Cayleigh.

Once in the barn Donna sliced off the ankle bindings and replaced them with shackles. She rummaged around in a few of the drawers and finally found an old ball-gag — a survivor from her father-in-law’s era. She pushed a button and a motor started up, lifting the sow feet first into the air. Donna let it run until she was about eye-level with the sow’s knees and then she stepped back.

“I’m gonna show you something your daddy showed me.”

She took out Brett’s skinning knife.

“If you practice, maybe one day you’ll be as good as he was.”

The sow didn’t wake up until Donna had started work on her left leg. She started screaming not long after that.

***

When the police arrived, the sow was still alive. Donna knew she wouldn’t stay that way though. Brett had told her all about the skin — it was the largest organ in the body, and Donna had thought he was pulling her leg about that one until he showed it to her in one of his textbooks. Without it the body had no defence against germs or even against the cold. The world was a harsh place, and it became harsher still without your skin.

He’d showed her how to separate skin from flesh, piece by piece. She’d been enchanted, watching a transformation like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon. People talked about things being skin deep like it was a bad thing, like goodness should be written all the way through to the bone. But Donna saw it differently. A person was only a person so long as they had their skin. Once you took that away, they were nothing. They were clean.

 Donna stepped away from the bloodied, shivering pig when asked. She lay down the knife.

She looked at her daughters, frozen with their newly cut capes still grasped in blood-slicked hands, eyes wide at this encroaching army of blue-uniformed creatures.

The world was a harsh place, but Donna hoped that the memory would live on — of a time of simple joy, simple love, where there had been only two things. Family and pigs.

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Angels on Mountaintops (from B is for Beasts)

Holley Cornetto

The hot summer sun beat down on the back of my neck as I stood surveying the single file line. The girls ranged from eight to twelve years old.  We all had our favorites, of course, along with a couple that no one wanted in their group. I glanced at the clipboard in my hand. “Keisha, Sammy, Amber, and Riley, you’re in the red group with me. Come take your bandanas.”

The girls stepped forward, looking hesitantly at one another. Sammy was the wild card in this group. She was new at camp this year, and most of the others kept their distance from her. I’d noticed her a few times, collecting feathers and stones and putting them into the pink fanny pack she wore around her waist. I hoped that, by taking her under my wing, I could help her fit in with the others. I handed each girl a red bandana. “Do you have your bags ready?”

“Yes, Miss Elena,” Amber answered. She was an overachiever, which made her good to have along. Amber liked rules, and she especially liked making sure other people followed them.

From the corner of my vision, I saw my Aunt Celia jogging towards me. “Elena?” she called.

“Yeah?”

My aunt Celia ran Star Lake Christian Camp, which guaranteed me a summer job through high school and college. She took pride in running the camp, which had started as an extension of the church my uncle pastored, but had grown in popularity over the past few years, bringing in kids from all over the area.

“I’ve hired a new counselor. I want her to join your group for this outing so you can show her the ropes, okay?”

I rubbed the inside of my palm with my thumb. “It’s weird being here without Abby.”

Aunt Celia frowned. “We’ve talked about this, Elena. You can do this. I need someone to train Miranda, and since you’ve been here the longest, I think it should be you.”

I nodded. “I… I guess I can.”

“Great.” She smiled and patted my shoulder. “I’ll have her meet you at the van.”

***

I could feel the AC blasting out the van’s back doors. This summer was shaping up to be another full of record setting temperatures. Miranda helped stack the bags into the van.

I leaned against the door, handing her another pack. “So, what brought you to Star Lake?”

She shrugged. “I need the money. You know, for college and stuff.” Miranda was all braided blonde hair and freckles, pretty in that small-town sort of way. It wasn’t her fault my aunt had saddled me with her, but I wasn’t thrilled with the idea of a multi-day trip into the woods with four kids and a complete stranger.

“Oh yeah, what do you study?”

“Early childhood ed. I want to work with kids. Maybe teach one day.”

I nodded. “Well, you’re in the right place, then. I’ve worked with most of the girls in this group before. They are a good bunch but keep an eye on Riley. She can be a bit of an instigator, if you know what I mean.”

She nodded. “What about you? Are you in school?”

“I was. I’m just, you know, taking a break for now.” I rubbed the inside of my palm with my thumb and took a deep breath. It would be fine. Everything would be fine. “I’ve worked here five years. The lady that hired you? She’s my aunt.”

She grinned, stacking the last bag into the back. “That must be nice.”

“It’s why I got the first pick of the groups.” I pushed the door shut.

“How do they decide who gets what activity?”

“We rotate. It just so happens that we got hiking and camping first. Lucky us, huh?”

We climbed into the van and sat behind the driver. After a headcount, we headed for the campgrounds.

***

After we unloaded, Miranda and I herded the girls into a circle. We were at the trailhead of a path that led up a ridge on the mountainside. The trip was a four-day hike, with a new campsite each evening.

Miranda checked each girl’s supplies while I unfolded the trail map. “All right, does everyone have a compass and whistle handy?” It was a formality, mostly. The group was always together; the likelihood that they would need their own compass or whistle was low, but the motto whispered among Star Lake Camp counselors was ‘Better safe than lawsuit.’

“Okay, ladies. We’re gonna hike up the ridge to the campsite. We’ll make camp there. It’s important that we stay together. There are snakes and bears and all sorts of things in the forest. It can be dangerous if you don’t know what you’re doing. Counselor Miranda has our food and cooking supplies, and I have the first aid kit. Do you understand?”

Keisha stepped forward, hand raised.

“Yes?”

“What if we need to use the restroom?”

Riley giggled, tossing her ponytail over her shoulder, “Then you’d better watch out for poison oak!”

I shook my head, suppressing a grin. “Miranda has a roll of toilet paper. No itchy butts for anyone.” The girls giggled. No matter how old they got, at least butt jokes were still funny.

“Okay, I’ll walk up front and the four of you– wait, where’s Sammy?” I turned to look behind me. Shit, less than fifteen minutes and I’d already lost a kid. This was why I needed a partner I could count on. Abby wouldn’t have let this shit happen.

I cupped my hands around my mouth. “Sammy?”

“She’s so weird,” Riley whispered loudly to the others.

I sighed and turned to the troop. “We don’t talk about each other like that. She may be different, but that’s okay. It’d be pretty boring if we were all exactly the same.”

Gravel crunched near the trailhead, and I turned to see Sammy, holding a pale blue feather in her hand. “I’m sorry. I found this and I wanted to look it up in my book.” She held up a pocket-sized field guide to birds.

“Weird,” Riley whispered again.

Miranda shushed her. Maybe she would be helpful after all.

“It’s okay, Sammy, but from now on, we stay together. If you see something you want to look at, let us know. Maybe we can all learn something about birds together, okay?”

Sammy nodded.

“Okay ladies, let’s move out!” I said, and we began our ascent of the ridge.

***

The first day’s hike was one the shortest on our route. It was designed this way so that we had ample time at the first site to practice setting up camp, complete with bonding time in the evening. It was all a part of Star Lake’s mission to foster community among Christian youths.

The campsite was a clearing surrounded by dense forest. We were at a pretty high elevation, and a stream flowed about twenty feet away. The scent of pine needles baking in the summer sun reminded me of summers past. Abby had loved the smell of pine.

I missed her. I knew I was supposed to be moving on, but how could I when everything about Camp Star Lake reminded me of her? The weight of her absence pressed heavily upon me. A constant burden.

Where I was timid and prone to anxiety attacks, Abby had been fearless. I used to be terrified of these overnight camping trips. Afraid that I’d get lost, or one of the girls in my care would get hurt. We seemed so far away, out there under the wide-open sky, that anything could happen. Abby had always been there to reassure me, and now that she wasn’t, I felt those old fears starting to creep back in.

“Elena?” Miranda was looking at me. She’d asked something, but I didn’t catch what.

“Sorry. I was… thinking. What’s up?” I crossed my arms over my chest.

“I was asking if you wanted us to start the fire now, or wait until the sun is setting?”

“Better to do it after the tents are up.” I rubbed my palm absently. “I’ll start looking for wood while you help the girls finish the tents.”

It was against the rules. No one, not even counselors, were supposed to leave the campsite alone. But Miranda was new, and either didn’t know the rule, or wasn’t confident enough to call me out on it.

 “Okay. Take your compass and whistle, just in case.” She smiled sheepishly.

“Try not to let any of them wander off this time.” I cringed. The words carried a sharpness I hadn’t intended. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.”

Her smile faded, and I saw my words had injured her. “Yeah. Of course. I’ll keep an eye out while you’re gone.”

I ducked into the copse of trees that ringed the campsite. After hours of trudging through the forest listening to the girls bicker and giggle and gossip, I needed a moment to myself, rules be damned. I’d apologize to Miranda later. I’d been unfair. It wasn’t her fault that Abby was gone.

The forest was a mix of old and new growth. Random ditches and fragments of old stone walls lingered like ghosts, hints of the life that used to exist here. It seemed a random place for a settlement, but the hills were full of vanished mining camps.

After I’d collected as much wood as I could carry, I started back for camp. The sound of leaves and twigs snapping under my feet seemed to fill the forest around me. That wasn’t right. It was loud, I realized, because there were no other sounds. At all.

I froze.

“Hello?”

A twig snapped behind me, and I spun, dropping the wood.

My heart threatened to pound straight through my shirt. “Is someone here? Miranda?” Stupid. I knew it wasn’t Miranda. She wouldn’t leave the girls alone.

A screech broke through the silence, a high-pitched sound somewhere between a dove’s coo and the squeal of rusty hinges. It was unlike anything I’d ever heard. I backed up against a large oak, my breathing shallow. I was trembling.

I was being irrational. It was a panic attack. All I heard was some weird bird – maybe a hawk or something. No reason to freak out.

A panic attack. Just another panic attack.

A twig snapped, and I nearly jumped out of my skin.

“Miss Elena?” Sammy stepped out from behind the shelter of a pine tree.

“Sammy! You scared the crap out of me. What are you doing out here? Was that you making that sound?” I was gulping in air, trying to fight down the rising terror.

“I was looking for feathers.” She held up a bundle of sticks and twigs, knit together by twine and feathers. Shaped like… a ladder?

“What is that?”

She frowned and looked at her feet.

“Sammy?”

Her answer was hesitant, barely more than a whisper. “And he dreamed, and behold a ladder set up on the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven: and behold the angels of God ascending and descending on it.”

“You were building a ladder for angels?”

She nodded.

I sighed. “You shouldn’t have left camp. Miranda is probably scared shitless.”

“You shouldn’t say ‘shitless.’ The angels don’t like it when you say bad words.”

“Well, you can tell the angels I said I’m sorry. Come here and help me carry this wood back to camp, okay?”

She nodded and together we headed back.

***

Miranda was pacing around the fire. When she saw us bushwhacking our way back to camp, she ran out to meet us. “Oh my gosh, Elena, I’m so sorry. I was helping Keisha with her tent. I turned my back for two seconds, and Sammy was gone.”

Amber sat on a log by the empty fire pit. “I told her it was against the rules to leave the camp alone. I told her, but she didn’t listen.”

I sighed. “It’s fine. No harm done.” I dropped the wood and turned to Sammy. “You can’t keep wandering off like that. You could get lost, or hurt…”

She dragged the toe of her boot in the dirt. “I thought I heard the angels. I was going to find them.”

Oh boy, I’d picked the crazy kid for my group. Freaking fantastic. “Angels?”

She nodded.

I could hear Riley giggling from behind her tent.

I clapped my hands together. “Okay, everyone. We’re going to start a fire and make some dinner. After we eat, we’re going to have a sharing circle.”

“Lame,” Riley said, approaching the fire pit. “We should play truth or dare instead.”

“Maybe tomorrow night. We always have a sharing circle on the first night. It’s how we get to know each other. And we have two new people in our group.”

Riley groaned dramatically.

I grinned. “Don’t worry, you’ll live.”

***

The fire crackled and popped, burning low. The stars were out in full force. Out here, in the middle of nowhere West Virginia, the sky seemed boundless. It made me feel my own insignificance, a small speck of life, spinning on a rock in the middle of the universe.

Abby had loved the stars.

I jumped as pots and pans clanged together. Though it was only Miranda cleaning up, I was on edge. The terror I felt in the forest had followed me back to camp, clinging to me like a shadow even now. I shivered.

Sammy couldn’t have made that sound. It wasn’t human. And why had it been so quiet? Forests were never quiet, not in the middle of a summer afternoon.

Miranda cleared her throat.

I looked up and smiled. “Thanks for getting those. Okay, girls. It’s time we all got to know each other a little better.

“Those of you who’ve been here before know the drill. We all sit in a circle and share things about ourselves with each other. Will anyone volunteer to go first?”

Amber’s hand shot up. Riley rolled her eyes.

“Go ahead, Amber.”

“I’m Amber. I go to Weston school, and I get straight As. My teacher said my research paper about people’s biases towards insects was the best in the class, and she hung it up in front of the room.”

“Insects, huh?” I asked. “Why don’t you tell us a bit about what you learned?”

She grinned. “Well, people are trained to make certain associations with different types of insects. They believe that some are good, and others are bad. Like ladybugs are good, and wasps are bad.”

Keisha nodded. “That’s because wasps are nasty, and ladybugs are cute.”

“But wasps aren’t bad. They’re pollinators,” Amber continued, “And then, people think butterflies are good and moths are bad.”

“Wait, why are moths bad?” Miranda asked. “They’re like butterflies, just not as colorful.”

Amber shrugged. “Some people think they are bad luck. Like an omen, or something.”

I stood. “Very good, Amber. Why don’t we hear from someone new, next? Sammy, would you like to share with us?”

She stood slowly, unzipping her fanny pack. She reached inside and pulled out a feather, a coping mechanism, holding it as she spoke. “I’m Sammy. This is my first year at camp. I live with my grandma now, and she said I should come so I could spend time with other kids.”

“How come you live with your grandma?” Keisha asked.

I stood again. “Keisha, I don’t think–”

“No, it’s okay,” Sammy answered. “My parents went away.”

“They moved?” Keisha asked.

“No, my Dad used to take us on fishing trips, and we stayed at a cabin by the lake. One night, at the cabin, the angels came and took them both away.”

Angels. That explained what she’d said before. The poor kid wasn’t crazy, she was grieving, and someone must have told her the angel story to ease the pain of her loss. It was pretty common. When I first heard about Abby, people said all sorts of crazy things to me about her death. “She’s in a better place,” or “God called her home,” and all the other things people say to feel better when someone dies.

“I’m looking for them. If I find the angels, they’ll take me to my parents. We can be together again.”

I felt a sharp pang of grief. Someday, Sammy would realize that there were no angels to reunite her with her parents. Only death could do that.

Riley was less moved. “That’s just stupid. Angels don’t literally come and take people away. Your parents are dead, dumbass.”

“Riley!” I scolded.

“What? It’s true. This is why everyone thinks she’s weird. I’m just trying to help.”

“Okay, enough. I think that’s enough for tonight.”

Riley sulked. “But I didn’t get to tell everyone about the new iPhone I got for my birthday.”

“You didn’t want to share anyway,” I reminded her.

“Yeah, lame. Can we have our phones back now?”

I shook my head. “No, this trip is about unplugging and spending time in nature, and with each other. Phones all stay locked up until the trip is over.”

She huffed.

“All right, girls. Everyone to your tents. We’re going to get an early start in the morning.”

There were two tents, each large enough for a counselor and two girls. I’d decided to bunk with Keisha and Sammy, to keep an eye on Sammy. From her first disappearance to the strange sounds in the forest, a sense of dread loomed over this trip. Maybe it was just me missing Abby, but something felt wrong this time.

***

I woke with a start. I wasn’t sure what time it was, but something had woken me. A sound or movement. A sense of something wrong. I sat up in my sleeping bag and clicked on my flashlight. I shined the light across the tent, to the side the girl’s sleeping bags were on. Sammy’s was empty.

Damnit. Maybe she had to go to the restroom, but I was starting to get fed up with this kid wandering off. I unzipped my sleeping bag and slid my shoes on. I didn’t bother with socks.

I pulled back the flap of the tent and shined the light around the campsite.

“Sammy?” I asked in a loud whisper. “Are you out here?”

I took a few steps towards the fire pit and paused. Voices. Had she woken up Miranda, or the other girls? But that didn’t make sense. Why would she wake them and not me?

Another step. Two more. Not voices. Voice. One voice. It was Sammy. She was singing.

I stepped slowly, trying to make as little noise as possible. I could see her now as my eyes adjusted to the moonlight. I clicked off the flashlight.

She stood under the open sky, her hands extended upward. She wore a white nightgown that reached to her feet, dirt-caked at the hem. Her tiny body swayed as she sang, the words coming into focus:

“Oh, come, angel band,

Come and around me stand;

Oh, bear me away on your snowy wings

To my immortal home.”

I circled around, afraid I’d startle her if I approached from behind. “Sammy?” I hissed. “Sammy, what are you doing out here?”

Her eyes were rolled back into her head. She stared with those white, blank eyes.

Shit. She’s having a seizure. I sprinted forward and took hold of her shoulders. “Sammy?!” I screamed into her face. “Sammy! Snap out of it!”

I heard rustling from the tents as the others woke to the sound of my shouts. They rushed to the edge of the clearing.

Miranda got there first. “Elena? Sammy? Are you okay?”

“She’s having some sort of seizure!” I turned back to face Sammy, who blinked and stood staring back at me.

She rubbed her eyes.

“Sammy, are you okay?”

She nodded. “Yeah. Why?”

By now the other girls had reached us and were standing around in a circle.

I shook Sammy a little too hard. “What were you doing out here?”

Miranda stepped forward. “Come on, let’s go back to camp.”

I looked up. “Did you see her eyes? They were…”

“She was sleepwalking, Elena. We should get the girls back to bed.”

I looked at the others. Riley was smirking, but Keisha and Amber both looked shaken, concerned. “Of course. Sorry. Let’s go, ladies. Nothing to see here.”

***

I spent the rest of the night sleeping in fits and starts. I dreamt of little girls having seizures and angels like monsters coming to carry them away while I screamed and pleaded. Sometimes the girls in the dreams had Abby’s face.

By the time I pulled myself from the sleeping bag in the morning, the water was already boiling, and Miranda was measuring out instant coffee powder. She handed me a mug.

“Thanks. You’re a saint.”

“Not an angel?” She lifted an eyebrow.

The tension of the last couple of days eased its grip on me, and I laughed. She winked and took a sip from her mug.

“Thanks for last night, Miranda. I know I didn’t exactly handle it well.” I looked down at my coffee.

“You know, they really should disclose things like sleepwalking on the medical release form. It’s kind of scary when you aren’t expecting it. It’s not the kind of thing that should be sprung on you in the middle of a camping trip.”

I grinned. She was letting me off easy. “Definitely not. And hey, I’m sorry if I’ve seemed… unwelcoming. It isn’t you, it’s just–”

“Your friend, Abby, right?”

I nodded. “How do you know about Abby?”

“Your aunt told me. She said not to mention her unless you brought it up.”

“Oh? What else did she tell you?”

“Not much. That she was your best friend. That it was an accident, and that this is your first summer back since it happened. That you might be a little…” She seemed at a loss for what I might be. That made two of us.

“I think I’m more than a little.”

She smiled and bumped me with her shoulder. “Don’t worry. I get it.”

I turned up my mug, letting the coffee scald the back of my tongue. “We should pack and get moving before the heat gets unbearable.”

***

The second campsite was further out and further up. Most of the second day’s hike was uphill, but it was a gradual climb. I hadn’t noticed just how high we’d climbed until an overlook or a clearing offered a scenic view. As we gained elevation, the large deciduous trees gave way to scraggly pines.

Amber stayed up front with me, followed closely behind by Riley, who took every opportunity to whine about her missing phone.

“You could at least let us check them before bed.”

“For the thousandth time, Riley, no phones, period.”

Keisha and Sammy hung back closer to Miranda. Normally I wouldn’t keep so far ahead, but Riley made snide remarks anytime Sammy was within earshot.

Next year, I was picking a different group.

We climbed up the hillside, one of the few places on the trail where it was too steep to walk up. When we reached the top, I turned and looked back. There was no sign of Miranda, or the two girls in her care. “Okay, ladies. Wait here a minute. Have a drink of water. I’m going to see how far back the others are. We might need to rest a minute and let them catch up.”

I spotted Keisha a little way back from the direction we’d come. I scrambled down to meet her, and offered a hand, helping her up the steep cliffside.

“Where are Miranda and Sammy?”

She was panting. “Back a little. Sammy kept stopping.”

“Is she tired?”

Keisha shook her head, taking in a deep breath. “No, she was leaving a trail of feathers.”

“She what?”

“You know the feathers she collects? She was leaving them on the trail so the angels would be able to find her.”

I sighed. “Thanks, Keisha. I’ll go find them. Why don’t you go join Amber and Riley at the top?”

She nodded and placed her hand on the next rock, pulling herself up.

“Oh, and Keisha?”

“Yeah?”

“Maybe don’t tell them about Sammy’s feathers.”

“Sure thing, Miss Elena.”

***

Between the heat, the climb, and Sammy’s feathers, it was dusk by the time we made camp.

I coaxed the fire to life and took a seat beside Miranda. I’d decided to be kinder to her, especially after last night. I’d lost my cool, and she’d proven good in a crisis. I rubbed the inside of my palm with my thumb. It was okay, no real harm had been done. I still felt like an ass for the way I’d reacted, though.

The girls were clustered in a circle around the campfire. Keisha looked over at Miranda and me. “Can we tell scary stories?”

Officially, we were supposed to discourage this type of behavior. We were supposed to encourage the girls to tell stories of encouragement and empowerment. All counselors received a packet with suggested topics to have the girls discuss in the evenings by the fire.

I didn’t have the energy, so I shrugged. Scary stories it was.

Miranda leaned in and whispered. “I don’t want to seem weird but…”

“But what?”

“I had this really strange feeling during the hike today.”

“Strange like what?”

“Like we were being watched.”

“The whole time?”

She nodded. “Kinda like we were being followed or something.”

“You didn’t see anyone, did you?”

She shook her head.

“Maybe it was just a bad feeling? Sammy spooked us all last night.”

She smiled nervously. “Yeah. You’re probably right.”

Amber was standing, waving her hands dramatically. “And when they shined the light in its direction, its eyes glowed like reflectors on a bicycle. A year later, it took revenge on the town. It made a whole bridge collapse!”

***

That night, Miranda offered to share a tent with Sammy and Amber. As a matter of policy, we rotated the sleeping arrangement so that all the girls got to spend time with each other. I wasn’t looking forward to the night Riley and Sammy shared a tent.

I tossed and turned in my sleeping bag. Faint noises crept into my dreams, doves cooing and rusty hinges creaking. I woke up in a sweat and kicked off my sleeping bag. When I reached for my water bottle, I saw a soft glow in the distance.

It’s probably Miranda or one of the girls going to pee, I told myself. I clicked on my light and checked the tent. Riley and Keisha were sound asleep. Not them, then.

I sighed. What if Sammy was sleepwalking again? I pulled on my boots and stepped out of the tent. I’d have sold my soul for a good night’s sleep.

Outside the tent, I could see the glow was multiple flickering lights. It was weird, and weird meant Sammy. Although I’d never admit it in front of the others, Riley was right. The kid had issues.

I felt a tickle on the back of my hand and brushed something away in the darkness. I walked closer. Sammy was standing in front of what I could only describe as an altar. It was an enormous slab of rock covered with a white cloth. Three votive candles flickered on top, emanating the smell of melted wax.

Another tickle, this time on my face. I slapped my cheek and pulled my hand away. A dead moth.

I glanced back at the altar. The votives were surrounded by moths, large and small, darting like suicide towards the flame. Strange as it was to see the cloud of moths with their pale white wings dancing with death, it was stranger still that Sammy knew how to build an altar and had packed her own supplies.

When she spoke, her voice was soft, like the flutter of the moth’s wings, “… out of the midst thereof came the likeness of four living creatures. And this was their appearance; they had the likeness of a man.

And every one had four faces, and every one had four wings.

And their feet were straight feet; and the sole of their feet was like the sole of a calf’s foot: and they sparkled like the color of burnished brass.

And they had the hands of a man under their wings on their four sides; and they four had their faces and their wings.”

I recognized the words, as if from a story I’d heard. No, not a story — scripture. She was quoting scripture.

 A rustling sound in the distance broke my concentration. As I turned in the direction of the sound, I glimpsed a silhouette among the stunted, man-sized trees.

I grabbed Sammy and ran back towards the camp. From behind us came the rustling of wings and a sound like the coo of a dove and the squeal of rusty hinges. Something dark circled overhead, blocking out the moon’s bright glow. By the time I got to the tent, Miranda was awake, coming out to search for Sammy.

“Get inside!” I hissed.

She looked behind us, wide-eyed. “What is…”

“Just get inside!”

She fastened the tent behind us. It wasn’t much protection, I knew, but it was better than being exposed, out under the open sky.

“What the hell is going on?” she shouted.

“The angels don’t like it when–”

“Shut up about the stupid angels, Sammy. This is serious!” I looked around the tent frantically. “Do you have the bag with the phones?”

Miranda nodded.

“See if you can get a signal. Someone’s out there. Sammy’s light must have attracted them.” I turned towards Sammy. “We told you not to wander off. What were you doing out there?”

She started sobbing. “I was calling the angels.”

“Sammy, I’m sorry about what happened to your parents, but angels are not coming to get you. You put us in danger, do you understand?”

“The angels won’t hurt us.”

I sighed. “Sammy, you have to stop this.”

Miranda stared at the phone’s screen. “Nothing.”

Amber sat up in her tent and rubbed her eyes. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. Sammy was sleep walking again. Everything’s okay. Go back to sleep.”

I exchanged glances with Miranda. “I’m going to look outside. To see if whatever it is has gone.” I took a flashlight and a whistle. At least if there was trouble, I could make enough noise to warn the girls.

“If someone is out there… following us… maybe we should just pack up and go.”

“We can’t hike down the side of the mountain in the dark. Someone will get killed.”

“Okay but be careful. If you see anything…”

“I’ll blow the whistle.”

She nodded, hugging Sammy against her chest. I could tell the whistle was as little comfort to her as it had been to me.

***

I crept over to the altar. The wind picked up and blew out the flame of the candles. Feathers, no doubt spread by Sammy, whipped around in the breeze. The moths were long gone. I picked up the candles and noticed a small Bible open on the altar. King James version. It seemed an odd thing for a child to carry around, but odd took on a new meaning as far as Sammy was concerned. I reminded myself to search her bag for matches later.

I stepped away from the altar and my boot crunched on something solid. I bent down and lifted a bundle of twine and sticks roped together in the shape of a ladder. I scooped it into my arms, along with the extinguished candles, the cloth, and the Bible. I’ll give the kid one thing; she was certainly determined.

When I got back to the tent, Sammy had cried herself to sleep in Miranda’s arms.

“No sign of anyone outside. Whoever or whatever it was seems to be gone now.”

“I sent Amber to your tent,” she whispered, cradling Sammy. “The crying was keeping her awake.”

“I think we should keep watch. Just in case there is someone out there, and they come back. Take Sammy and stay with the others. If I put the packs in the other, we should all be able to squeeze into one tent.”

She nodded.

“I’ll take first watch.”

Exhaustion was catching up with me. As I settled outside to watch, I thought I saw the silhouette of a giant bird circling overhead.

***

A scream pierced the peaceful predawn calm, startling me to attention. I’d fallen asleep during my watch. Apparently, Miranda had fallen asleep too, and failed to come relieve me of duty.

I rushed to Miranda’s tent. The door flap was ripped aside, and Miranda stood in front of it, screaming.

“Shit. Shit.”

“What happened?” I asked.

“I don’t know. I was with the girls. I fell asleep.”

I peered inside the gaping hole. “Oh God.”

“It’s our stuff…”

The packs were torn open. Their contents littered about, leading a trail out the back of the tent, where there was another gaping hole.

I looked back at Miranda. “How did we sleep through this?” Among the torn clothing and spilled supplies, there were markings in the dirt. They didn’t belong to any man or beast I could identify.

I was outside the tent. The girls and Miranda were inside the other. Someone, or something had done this intentionally, strategically. The thought, once formed inside my mind, was too horrible to contemplate.

By this time Riley, Sammy, and Keisha were standing around, surveying the destruction.

“We need to clean this up. We’ll salvage what we can and get moving.”

I rubbed the inside of my palm with my thumb. It would be okay. We would clean up and hike for as many hours as we were able. If we trekked from dawn till dusk, we could get to the rendezvous site ahead of schedule. It was a risk, but miles from nowhere, it seemed the only way out.

The girls started sorting through the litter. Miranda looked at me. “Elena?”

“Yeah?”

“Where’s Amber?”

***

I handed Miranda the only working phone we’d found among the debris. “Start walking. Keep checking for a signal. If you get one, call 911. If you see anyone, ask for help.”

“I don’t want to leave you here alone with the girls.”

“We can’t leave until we find Amber. The best thing you can do is get help.” I handed her a few of the granola bars and some jerky we’d managed to salvage. “Take the map, too.”

I felt a sharp pain in my gut as I watched her walk away.

“Miss Elena?”

I inhaled a deep breath, trying to maintain a semblance of calm. “Yes, Keisha?”

“We want to help look for Amber.”

“I know, sweetheart, but it is dangerous to wander away from camp. What if someone else gets lost?”

Outside the remaining tent, we’d piled all the supplies we’d managed to save. Keisha reached down and lifted a spool of twine. It was the twine that had bound together the sticks and branches, shaping the ladders Sammy built.

“Someone holds one end, and we tie the other end to the tree.” Keisha nodded to one of the scraggly pines just outside the clearing. “That way, we can find our way back.”

The ball of twine wasn’t long enough for us to explore very far beyond camp, but it at least it would keep them busy and let them feel they were helping. They were all worried. Even Riley managed to keep her whining and fault-finding to a minimum.

I kept Sammy with me. I didn’t want to risk her wandering off with the other girls. I feared they would leave her or get lost trying to follow her.

I rubbed my palm.

“Why do you do that, Miss Elena?” Sammy asked.

I smiled. “It’s an old habit.”

“You do it when you’re afraid, but you shouldn’t be afraid. The angels took Amber. She’ll be fine.”

The angels. It was insanity, but maybe she had seen something. “Sammy, will you tell me about the angels?”

She considered it for a moment, then nodded. “What do you want to know?”

“You said the angels took your parents, and now, Amber, too?”

She nodded again.

“Where do they take people?”

Sammy shrugged. “Paradise.”

I sighed. It was no use. The kid was suffering from some sort of delusion. A mental breakdown triggered by the death of her parents. She didn’t know anything.

After a moment, she looked up at me. “Do you hear that, Miss Elena?”

I opened my mouth to answer, and then heard the sound like the cooing of a dove and the squeal of rusty hinges.

Sammy grinned. “It’s the angels. They’re close.”

***

An hour had passed since Keisha and Riley’s last check in. They’d either found something, or something was wrong.

“Sammy, I think we need to go and look for Keisha and Riley.”

Sammy shrugged. “They’re with the angels now.”

I sighed and turned so she wouldn’t see me roll my eyes. If we got out of this alive, I was going to give my aunt a piece of my mind. This kid didn’t need camp, she needed a therapist.

“Let’s leave a note in case Miranda comes back. Maybe she’s gotten a cell signal by now.”

Sammy nodded.

Among our salvage was a half-torn Star Lake Camper’s Handbook. I ripped the back cover off and scribbled: Gone to find the others. Will return. ~E

I attached it to the outside of the tent.

Three girls. Three girls missing on my watch.

I picked up the twine and felt sick. It was slack. Nobody was holding the other end.

“Sammy, you go first. I don’t want you out of my sight.”

She nodded and led the way through the forest.

The twine twisted around the scraggly pine trees and through shrubs. I called until my voice cracked. “Keisha? Riley?” When we reached the end of the cord, there was nothing. It lay on the ground, abandoned. I slumped to the ground and sobbed.

Sammy leaned down beside me. “Don’t cry, Miss Elena. We’ll find the angels; they’ll take us, too.”

My face flushed with anger. “There aren’t any angels, Sammy. They don’t come and take people away. That isn’t how it works, so just shut up about stupid freaking angels!”

She looked stricken. She took two steps backwards, her lower lip trembling.

“I’m sorry, Sammy. I didn’t mean it, I–”

She didn’t wait to hear the rest. She turned and ran.

***

Everything hurt. My eyes stung from crying, my feet from walking, my throat from yelling.

“Sammy? Keisha? Riley? Anyone?”

I hadn’t gone back to camp since Sammy ran away. I couldn’t. I wandered around the forest, possibly in circles. I had no map, no compass. It was impossible to tell.

Every so often, I heard a noise like the cooing of a dove and the squeal of rusty hinges. Apart from my voice, it was the only sound in the forest.

Night fell, and still I wandered. I might have slept. If I did, I slept while walking. Not exactly sleepwalking, not as Sammy had done. But Sammy hadn’t been sleepwalking, and I’d known it. She was calling to them, to the angels.

My stomach rumbled. I found a bush with berries and swallowed a handful. A few minutes later I was bent over a shrub, vomiting. I wandered across a stream and bent down, gulping mouthfuls of water. I drank until my stomach ached, and then lay back beside the water, watching the night sky.

I heard a rustling sound and looked up. A large bird flew overhead. I remembered the bird circling the camp. No. Not a bird. The wings weren’t bird wings. There were no feathers.

I pushed myself up from the stream bank and ran after it. I kept my eyes towards the sky, tripping over roots and undergrowth, stumbling through the forest in the moonlight. It called out into the night. The coo of a dove and the squeal of rusty hinges.

I tripped and landed on my face in the dirt. I sat upright and looked to the sky, but whatever I had been chasing was gone.

I felt the ground, trying to find what had tripped me. My hand fell upon something stringy and slick, like clumps of wet hair. I pulled my hand away and saw it covered in blood. I scrambled backwards and screamed. A head.

At least it had been a head. One eye dangled half out of its socket, the other already gone. An ear was missing. The face was frozen in a scream of terror, gazing up at the sky. I realized with horror that I recognized the blonde hair. The long braid. Miranda.

I sobbed. Was I dreaming? Hallucinating? Those berries I ate, maybe they were making me see things. If mushrooms could do it, why not berries? My heart was racing. I felt myself hyperventilating. I pressed my eyes shut tight. This isn’t real, this is a panic attack. I am asleep at the camp. I fell asleep. I am going to wake up. I am going to wake up…

When I opened my eyes, I had to rub them twice before I believed them. The ground writhed all around me. Giant maggots squirmed across the most grotesque garden I’d ever seen – a garden of human heads, their bodies planted beneath the soil. Close to me were fresher ones, still fleshy and stinking of decomposition. Farther back, only skulls remained.

I forced myself to look at them. Miranda, Amber, Keisha, Riley… they were all here, faces all twisted in horror, all looking upward, all partially eaten.

But, not Sammy. One of the child-sized maggots slithered toward her, eager to feed. I launched myself at it, recoiling at the touch of its cold, slimy flesh. It stank of puss and rot. I swallowed down the bile in my throat and shoved.

It was futile. The thing wriggled through my grasp, intent on its feast.

I scrambled closer to Sammy and scratched the dirt with my bare hands to unearth her buried body. “Come on, I’ll get you out of here!” I flung dirt and pebbles in every direction.

Sammy didn’t look panicked, not even alarmed. Her face was serene. “Look, Miss Elena. Angels.”

A cry pierced the night. I looked up and saw the angel, all moth wings and glowing red eyes. It swooped down, blotting out the night sky.

The writhing thing bit down hard into my leg. Not a maggot, I realized. A caterpillar.

B is for Beasts is available for Kindle, in paperback, and on Audible here.

Holley can be found on Twitter and you can learn more on her website.

Look for her story “The Groom of Lorelei” in Don’t Break the Oath, coming October 31st from Kandisha Press.

Even in Darkness, We See Them (from A is for Aliens)

Megan Neumann

Maddy lingered by Brady’s bedside, tucking in his covers a little too tightly. She didn’t want to leave his side, didn’t want to go to her own bed. As she leaned in to kiss his forehead, he reached out his hand and tugged on her sleeve. “There are men in my room at night,” he said, his voice low, his eyes steady and serious.

“Men?” Maddy asked. Alarm, followed quickly by amusement, went through her mind in seconds. Kids dreamed. The lines between reality and imagination blurred, especially in the darkness of night. She knew this better than most people. “You’ve never said anything about men in your room before.”

“I forgot until now,” Brady whispered. He furrowed his brow, and to Maddy he resembled a tiny old man, too wise and too thoughtful to be her six-year-old son. “But I remembered just now when you were standing over me. They come in there.” He pointed over Maddy’s shoulder. “Through the wall. Then they poke me. They pull my hair.” Brady’s eyes looked through her as if he could see the dream men over her shoulder. “I can’t move when they’re here. I don’t like it.” His voice started to rise. Maddy sensed his temper rising too. She placed her hands on his shoulder.

“Shh,” Maddy said. “There are no men. It was just a dream.”

He sighed. Maddy’s mother sighed the same way whenever Maddy said something particularly dense. Maddy rolled her eyes, the same way she did when her mother sighed at her.

“It’s not a dream, Mom!” he yelled, and Maddy knew nothing she could do would stop his fit. He would grab the sheets in his fists and kick the blanket, crying out for Maddy to leave, pleading for her to leave him alone forever, screaming about how she was hurting him.

Somehow, remarkably, he took a breath and looked up at Maddy with old man eyes, eyes with too much knowledge. How could she have a son so smart when her own life was riddled with dumb mistake after dumb mistake?

“I know it’s not a dream,” he said. “I saw them. Their bodies are made of static except for their teeth. Their teeth are like ours. They’re always smiling.”

“Static? With teeth? That can’t be real, can it?” Maddy tried to make her voice light, joking, so he’d know there was nothing to fear. “Sometimes dreams can seem real.” Maddy turned on the lamp on his bedside table. “They can look just like real life, but they’re not real. No one comes in here at night but me and your grandma.” She kissed his clammy forehead. “I can leave the lamp on if you get scared.”

“It doesn’t matter.” His voice was resigned. “Light or dark, it doesn’t matter.”

“How do you know?” Maddy asked, feigning curiosity. “Light makes scary things disappear.” She smiled, while lying through her teeth.

“Last time the lamp was on, and they were still here. It didn’t make them go away. They pulled out my hair.”

At these words, Maddy’s eyes widened. “Look at me.”

His gray eyes moved upward, gazing into Maddy’s own brown eyes. He wore a solemn expression.

“There are no men. I know you think it’s real, but it’s not.” She brushed Brady’s hair from his forehead. “You have to accept that.” She moved toward him and breathed in the smell of his shampoo. His downy hair brushed against her cheek. She wanted to hold him, but she knew he wouldn’t let her. In the last year, he started to hate hugs from his mom. He was too big now, he liked to say. Big kids didn’t hug their moms.

“Sometimes I have bad dreams too, and you know how I deal with it?”

“How?” For an instant, his voice was petulant, more like a six-year-old’s voice should be.

“I close my eyes and go back to sleep.” Maddy didn’t blink as she lied. “Can you do that?”

He nodded, and Maddy tightened the blanket around his body one last time before leaving him.

In their living room, her mother, Carol, lay across the sofa watching reruns of sitcoms. Carol liked the familiarity of the programs she’d seen dozens of times. Maddy couldn’t blame her. She too found comfort in knowing when to laugh and when to cry.

“That took longer than usual,” Carol said. “Didn’t have a fit again, did he?”

“No, thank God. But he’s having nightmares. Apparently, static men come into his bedroom at night. Static men with teeth.”

“Static men? That’s a new one. You used to have nightmares, remember?”

“I do.”

“His will pass. Just like yours did.”

Maddy said nothing. Her mother couldn’t see the pain on Maddy’s face because Carol still faced the television, the bright pictures lighting her features.

Should Maddy have told her mother the truth? No, she knew she shouldn’t. What good would the truth do in this family?

The nightmares never did go away. Instead, she learned to live with them. In the night, when she sweated through her sheets, her heart pounding, knowing someone was in the room with her, she would close her eyes and hope sleep would come again soon. But Maddy couldn’t tell her mother that. Carol would feel guilty, just as Maddy felt guilty over not saving Brady from his own nightmares.

“I’m going to bed,” Maddy said. Carol grunted in reply.

In the kitchen, Maddy took her sleeping pills and instantly a wave of relief rushed over her. It was impossible for the pills to take effect so quickly, but she felt an easy lightness upon taking the drug anyway. Maddy drifted in a daze to her bed, passing by Brady’s room, the light of his lamp shining beneath the door. She paused, pressed her body against the doorframe, and listened. No sounds. He’d always been a quiet sleeper.

Over the next few days Brady didn’t mention his nightmares again. His days passed as usual, a lonesome boy playing in his room. But there was something different about him. He seemed quieter. Was he growing paler and thinner? Some days he went to the backyard and played on a rusted swing set with only one swing and a slide that tipped to one side when he sat on it. Maddy knew she should get rid of it, but he loved the set so much. Besides, she couldn’t afford a new one.

As usual, when she’d leave for work, Carol would watch him. That weekend Maddy heard all about the tantrums during the week, his fits of selfishness or hatefulness toward his grandmother.

“He’ll grow out of it,” Maddy said. “He’s just a difficult boy.”

“He’s a problem. What are you going to do next year when he has to go to school?”

Maddy shrugged. “I’m sure there are other kids like him.”

Carol sighed. “They’ll kick him out of school. They’ll call you during the day to come get him if he kicks and bites and screams like he’s been doing. What will you do if they start asking questions about him?”

“What do you want me to do?” Maddy asked. Her mother knew she spent all her free time with Brady. She tried to make him good. Sometimes she worried he was unreachable, a distant star too far away or too hot for her to touch. No matter how hard she tried to grasp him, he eluded her. This distant boy would never be hers.

“You need to discipline him.” Carol crossed her arms and set her jaw.

“Like you disciplined me?” Maddy said this with more vitriol than she’d intended.

“Yeah, I brought the belt out more than a few times in your day, and you turned out all right.”

“Did I?”

Carol stared at her daughter, her eyes searching Maddy’s eyes. Maddy wondered how her mother could ever think she’d turned out all right.

“Single mother. Shit job. Shit house. Still living with my mom. Yeah, I turned out great. And it’s all because of your fine parenting. It’s your fault I even have Brady.”

Carol slapped her. Maddy’s face flew to the side, her cheek burning hot. She clutched her face and let out a small sob. She didn’t want Carol to see her crying, so she turned and watched Brady through the kitchen window. He’d climbed up the side of the swing set and had somehow made it to the top horizontal bar, straddling it with his feet dangling over each side. It wasn’t safe. He would fall and break an arm or worse. But Maddy didn’t want to be one of those parents who never let their kids get dirty or scrape their knees. She wanted him to learn on his own. Maybe she’d given him too much space. Maybe he’d learned too much. But he looked so happy.

“I did as much as I could with you,” Carol said quietly. “You’re doing as much as you can with him. We’re all doing our best with the lives we’ve chosen.”

“I didn’t choose this.”

As Maddy tucked Brady into bed again, she asked him if he still had nightmares.

“I don’t have nightmares,” Brady said matter-of-factly.

“You had a nightmare a few nights ago about men coming into your room. Remember?”

He pursed his lips. “Mom. I told you it wasn’t a nightmare.” He was so disappointed in Maddy’s stupidity. “But you didn’t believe me. You never believe me. Like when I told you about the lady from before—”

“Hush.” Maddy pressed a finger over his lips. “I told you she wasn’t real either. You’re still having nightmares, aren’t you? You’re still seeing the static men.”

He nodded. “I saw them last night. I’m used to them now. They don’t scare me.”

This surprised Maddy. How could he not be afraid?

“You’re not scared of the men who look like static?”

“They’re not really static. I looked at them closer. Their skin won’t hold still. It floats. But their teeth are normal. And they have no lips, so that’s why they’re always smiling.”

Maddy imagines this, and a chill rushes through her.

“Do they ever talk to you?”

“No. They like to watch me and touch my skin. I think they’re scientists.”

Maddy wondered how he even knew what scientists were. Or what static was. Then again, she remembered, he watched so much TV. He memorized everything. He probably knew more than she did.

“Why would they study you?”

“I asked them that, but they didn’t answer.”

Maddy couldn’t get the image of the static men out of her mind, so it didn’t surprise her when she dreamed about them that night. It didn’t feel like a dream, though. At first, she didn’t see them. A light emanated from the corner of the room. Then the light grew, moving closer. She couldn’t move her body. Their breathing sounded like rushing wind through leaves, growing louder till the sound was like a train. She wished she could scream, but her throat was closed.

They stood over her. Their skin moved over their organs like wisps of smoke, ever changing without feature except for their wide smiling mouths. Her heart thumped in her chest. Her fingers twitched. Her fingers were the only part of her she could move. But fingers were useless without moving hands and arms.

The static men moved their own hands in motions through the air and lights appeared before them. The lights blinked like camera flashes.

She must get up.

What if they were in Brady’s room too? What if they take him away from her?

She tried to move her arms again, but her limbs were heavy, too heavy to move. She struggled until she had lifted one arm, but the weight pulled it to the bed again.  She opened her mouth and started to scream, but the sound came out in a low croaking. Maddy wondered if this sound had actually come from her.

Screams erupted from somewhere in the house. Was it Brady’s room? Maddy couldn’t turn her head to listen. She couldn’t move her legs to run to him.

Above her, the static men laid their translucent hands over her body and moved them up and down. She felt no pain. Not even an unpleasantness. Their touches were soft, gentle. It wasn’t until they pulled the hairs from Maddy’s head that she felt any discomfort at all.

Then they were gone, and the screaming stopped.

“You look like hell.” Carol set a cup of coffee in front of Maddy.

“Thanks, Mom.” She sipped the coffee, not really tasting it or smelling it. She hadn’t tasted or smelt anything in days, not since the static men started visiting her.

Beside her at the kitchen table, Brady sat eating his cereal in silence. His skin was sallow. Maddy touched her palm to his forehead. He felt too cold.

“Are you feeling okay?” she asked him.

He spooned more cereal into his mouth and chewed silently.

“You haven’t been sleeping?” she asked him.

He shook his head. “They keep waking me up,” he mumbled, looking down at the bowl, stirring the milk until he’d created a little whirlpool. Maddy watched it spin.

“He still having nightmares?” Carol asked.

“I should take him to a doctor.” Maddy looked up at her mother, but Carol looked skeptical.

“You really want to get involved with something like that? Doctors ask a lot of questions. What if they ask too many questions and someone finds out too much?”

“I’ve got to do something. I’m not sleeping either now.”

“You taking your medicine?” Carol asked.

“Yeah, but it doesn’t matter.”

“It doesn’t matter,” Brady repeated. “They’ll come no matter what.”

“What the fuck are you talking about, boy?”

“Mom!” Maddy yelled. “Language!”

Carol cackled. “He’s heard worse.”

Maddy moved toward Brady and whispered, “I believe you. They’re real. I’ve seen them in my room. I’m not going to let them hurt you again.”

“They don’t hurt me, Mom. I told you. They’re just curious.”

“I heard you screaming,” Maddy said.

“That wasn’t me. It was you.”

When Maddy was younger, she assumed everyone else was the same as her—everyone was scared to go to sleep. Sleep was dangerous and should be avoided at all cost. She assumed this was normal, so she didn’t tell Carol about it for years. She grew so sick. Maddy knew Carol used to worry over her as if expecting her to die at any moment.

Now, as an adult, it was Maddy’s turn to worry. Just like Carol, she worried her own son would leave her too.

But the static men were not the same as her old nightmares. Her old nightmares were quick flashes of things she’d left behind, things she had once loved taken from her. Bad things that had happened.

How could she stop the creatures paralyzing her? Night after night, she struggled under their control while they caressed, prodded, poked, and violated her sleep. Her days dragged by in painful episodes of half wakefulness. She had to go to work, had to continue her life and provide for her son. At the same time, she was failing him and failing herself. She’d die from lack of sleep, she knew. Then Brady would be left to Carol and to them, these static men who wanted to torture her and her son on a nightly basis.

“The static men are worried about you,” Brady said one night as they sat together at the table, neither of them eating.

“How do you know?”

“They told me.”

“But they don’t speak. Or they didn’t. Have they spoken to you?”

“Not really. Not like how we’re talking now. But sometimes they want me to know what they’re thinking, and I do.”

Somehow this made sense to Maddy. Of course, the static men could communicate without words.

“Why should they be worried about me? If they are, maybe they should leave us alone. I was fine before they came into our lives.”

“The static men say that it’s not them you’re afraid of. You’re afraid of the past. They say it haunts you and you won’t face it.”

“The static men don’t know what they’re talking about.”

“The static men know everything,” Brady said.

“They can’t know everything.”

Brady stared at her, his face unmoving. Then he folded his hands in his lap and looked out the open window where his rusty swing swayed slightly in the wind, its chains creaking.

“The static men have helped me remember,” Brady said. “That lady before. I remember her now.”

Maddy’s blood became cold. She took a quick breath and stood quickly, knocking over her chair. She backed away and nearly tripped. “I have to go. Your grandmother is calling.”

“She’s not my grandmother.”

Maddy didn’t acknowledge this. Instead, she stumbled through the dark house, the hall and rooms suddenly too small, the ceiling too low. Had the house always felt so claustrophobic? Soon she was in her mother’s bedroom. Her mother who was not her mother at all. Just like she was not Brady’s mother.

Carol’s body was sprawled out across the bed, the limbs awkwardly posed around her head. Briefly, Maddy thought the old woman was dead, but then she saw her mother’s heavy chest rise and fall, her eyelids flicker. Most likely dream images filled the old woman’s head, probably far more pleasant than anything Maddy had dreamt in the last two weeks.

“He knows,” Maddy announced.

Carol didn’t stir.

Maddy moved quickly, pouncing on the bed, grabbing her mother’s shoulders between her hands, shaking the old woman until her bloodshot eyes opened and gazed confusedly up at Maddy.

“What is it?”

“He knows!” The words came out hissed, but loud, loud enough for Brady to hear if he decided to stand in the hall listening.

“Who knows what?”

“Brady! He knows the truth. He knows what we did to him!”

“So?” Carol sat up. She pushed Maddy away and breathed slowly. Maddy saw no anxiety in Carol’s face, whereas Maddy’s heart pounded quickly in her chest. She wondered if her mother could hear it. Then she cursed herself for thinking that word: mother. Carol was not her mother. No more than she was Brady’s mother and now he knew. And Carol didn’t seem to care.

“He’s just a boy,” Carol said. “He can’t do anything. We have the paperwork now. He’s ours.”

“But what if he tells someone!”

“Who will he tell? And so what if he does? No one will believe him. Kids make up stories. We’ll tell them he was dreaming it like the static men he dreamt up.”

Maddy felt her dread receding. She put her face into her palms and took several deep breaths. The first few came out ragged, but slowly, her breathing steadied. Her mother was right. Her mother had always been right. Carol had never gotten caught when she took Maddy. There had never even been any close calls, as far as Maddy knew. And they had never gotten caught with Brady.

Three years ago they took him from his front yard. His real mother had been on the phone inside the house, probably gossiping with another one of the mothers whose house was perfect and new with a yard perfectly manicured by a paid stranger. God forbid the woman actually dirty her own hands. God forbid the woman actually watch her son.

Well, Maddy would watch him. She’d love him, and he would be hers, just like she had been Carol’s.

Carol had encouraged her to take him, told her this was their family way. What kind of person would the boy grow up to be in the clutches of some vain woman who never showed affection, not genuine affection at least?

And Maddy had been so lonely. It’d be so nice to have something of her own to hold and love her.

They took the boy on a hot summer’s evening while crickets chirped and sprinklers rained down on the green lawns. Brady didn’t even cry when Maddy picked him up. He smiled at her, a wise, knowing smile that would become so familiar, yet still strange over the years to come.

Then they drove through the night, across four states, never once stopping. No one saw them; no one knew where the boy had gone. She thought they had gotten away with it.

“You’re right,” Maddy said quietly. “How can he even know for sure?”

“Go talk to him,” Carol said, holding Maddy’s hand, squeezing her fingers too tightly. “Tell him he’s had another dream. Tell him the nightmares aren’t real. You are his mother!” These last few words she spat out, perhaps convincing herself more than Maddy.

“I am his mother,” Maddy said.

Then she walked into the hall and saw the light on in Brady’s room. She was prepared to tell him what her mother had told her to say. But instead, when she saw the boy curled up in his blankets, a book propped up on his knees, she couldn’t bring herself to lie. Who was she kidding? He was no son of hers. She loved him, yes. Perhaps he loved her as well. But they were not blood. They were not the same. The only things they’d ever share were the facts that they had both been taken and they had both seen the static men.

“I am not your real mother,” she said.

“I know,” Brady said. “I’ve known for a long time. Even before the static men, I knew.”

“How?”

“I could tell.” He looked up from his book and stared solemnly. “We’re not the same.”

“I love you. You know that, don’t you?”

“I know you love me,” he said, “but what you did was wrong. You broke the law.”

“Breaking the law is wrong. I don’t deny it.” Maddy sat on the bed and took his hands into her own. “Listen, I know I did something wrong, but it’s too late to make it right. I’m sorry for what I did. I’m sorry every day. What I did, it haunts me. I have nightmares about it. I can’t sleep.”

“The static men say you’re troubled. But for other reasons.”

“What have the static men told you about me?”

“They know Grandma isn’t your real mom. You were taken too late, and because of that, you’re troubled. Troubled like her. It’s a long line of trouble, they say, but they think I’ll be okay since I was younger. I’m adjusted. And you could still make it right.”

“What do you mean?”

“They’ve been studying us. The static men want to know about us. About people. They’re here to understand what we’d be like if they took people like you took me. And like Grandma took you. They said they were studying how we’d do if we were taken. They don’t think you’ll make it, but I will. I’m stronger.”

Maddy’s hands began to shake. “What do they mean I won’t make it?”

Brady shook his head. “You know what they mean, Mom.”

Maddy didn’t want to think about not making it. She’d avoided thinking about it her whole life. She stood, backed out of the room, and walked down the hall to her own room where she collapsed onto her bed face first. The anger and confusion she felt quickly subsided, overcome by deep exhaustion. She felt herself dozing. She shook her head quickly. No, she couldn’t fall asleep. The static men would come if she did.

The static men. They thought they knew her. They thought they knew what would become of her life, but they didn’t. They couldn’t. They weren’t real. It was a shared hallucination between her and Brady.

She thought of their long, unsubstantial fingers, reaching out to her, wiggling before her paralyzed body. The horror of it. In those moments, she’d only think of the worst memories from her youth, the paralyzing fear she’d felt when Carol had taken her. She was six, had just started kindergarten. It was after school when she’d been taken, picked up by Carol, lured into the car by some weak lie.

As the static men probed her, she saw Carol’s big fist coming down hard, hitting her right in the jaw, knocking her to the floor of the car where she’d lay for another ten hours, peeing herself, weeping quietly, hoping the strange woman wouldn’t hit her again. Carol kept threatening to throw her out of the car while it was moving, telling her the trucks would run over her and smear her across the road. So she better not make a sound. She better not act up or talk to anyone when they stopped for gas.

Every night for years, she’d wake up sweating, feeling as though she were still lying on that floorboard, her body jolted with each bump in the road, snot drying on her upper lip. She couldn’t stand being in the darkness of her room, so she’d always leave a light on in her bathroom or small lamp beside her bed. In the darkness, she felt she was still a child being taken, curled up and afraid to move. In the darkness, she could see the horrors of her past clearly.

Now Carol slept in the room next to her, and Maddy realized she’d fallen asleep. The static men stood over her. But something was different this time. Her body felt loose, not like the stiff paralysis normally experienced during their visits. She wiggled her toes to test it. Then she lifted a foot.

She stood cautiously, watching the static men. They were watching her too. There were six of them, and they stood about five feet away, not dancing like normal, not wiggling their fingers before her face. One lifted a hand and beckoned her forward. They turned in unison and walked down the hall. She followed.

She expected them to go to Brady’s room, but instead, they turned left into Carol’s bedroom. She joined them there where they made a semicircle around Carol’s bed. Each of the static men pointed at Carol. Then they looked at Maddy, if they could look. They had no eyes, just blank, static faces interrupted by wide toothy smiles.

“What?” Maddy asked. “What do you want me to do?”

“It’s too late for you,” Brady said behind her. She turned and saw him standing in the doorway.

“They say it’s not too late for me. I’ll be all right. But you, you’re haunted.”

“I’m haunted by these things!” she yelled, thrusting a hand toward the static men. “They’re ruining my life! Our lives! We were fine before all this started to happen.”

“No, Mom. You’ve never been fine. You’ve got to do what’s right. The static men are trying to tell you. You’ll never be okay. You were too old when you were taken. You’re messed up, Mom. But you can still save me. You have to do it.”

“Do what?”  She spat this question, and as she did, Carol stirred on the bed.

Maddy watched Carol open her eyes slowly, look around blearily, and then sit up, her eyes opening wide and darting around the room.

“What is this?” Carol asked.

Around her, the static men hissed, though their smiles never faltered.

“What are you doing in my room? Can’t you let an old woman sleep? Get back to your room and take that boy with you!”

The hissing grew louder. Maddy felt as if she were standing in the middle of a beehive.

Brady stepped forward and tugged on Maddy’s sleeve. “The static men say she won’t let me go. They say she won’t let you go either. You’ve got to stop it. You’ll sleep better when you do.”

“What is this idiot talking about? Get him out of here, and you get out too!” Carol roared, but Brady and Maddy stood still. The static men were moving in. They started their dance, wiggling their fingers before Carol’s face.

“What are they doing?” Maddy asked. “Move, Mom!”

Carol stepped out of bed and walked through the static men. They followed her, circling closely.

“She can’t see them, can she?” Maddy whispered. “Are they really there?’

“They don’t want her to see them,” Brady said, quietly.

“Listen,” Carol said, moving close and poking a finger hard against Maddy’s chest, “I’m sick of this nonsense. Both of you won’t speak of this again. You’ll act normal as if nothing’s wrong. Because nothing is wrong, is it?”

Maddy shook her head slowly. “Everything is wrong. Nothing has ever been right in this house.”

Carol slapped Maddy. Maddy instinctively rubbed her cheek and bowed her head. It wasn’t the first time Carol had slapped her. But perhaps it would be the last.

“The static men say you can be all right?” Maddy whispered to Brady. “Because you’re young enough.”

“Yes,” Brady said. “I’ll be all right. I’ll go home. Do it, Mom. They’ll help you.”

“What is this weird little shit saying?” Carol spat. She grabbed Brady by his wrist and yanked him toward her. “What the fuck are you yammering on about, you little freak!” She grabbed a fistful of his hair, and he cried out.

“Stop it!” Maddy reached forward. Carol slapped her again but this time harder. Maddy stumbled backward, falling to the floor. She felt the sudden panic of being trapped as a child. She wanted to curl up, pull her knees close to her chest, and pray for it to all be over soon. Then she heard Brady yell. He was still strong. Maddy wouldn’t let Carol weaken him, break him as she had broken Maddy so long ago.

“I’ll do it,” Maddy said quietly. “But you have to help me.” She nodded toward the static men.

The static men obliged. She saw them wiggle their long fingers around Carol’s body. Carol let out a strangled, “Gnnuhhh,” sound. Then she collapsed onto the floor, her body stiffened.

Maddy leaped on top of the woman she’d called mother for so long, but she’d always known, always hated. This woman was no mother. This woman had taken her from her home, put fear into her heart, and forced Maddy to do the same thing twenty years later. Now Maddy’s life was haunted, tainted by the stain of her own crimes.

Maddy wrapped her fingers—short and stubby compared to the static men’s—around Carol’s neck.

Carol did not fight back. She was paralyzed just as Maddy had been all those nights.

Maddy hoped her mother could see the static men, smiling down as they wiggled their fingers. She hoped, too, Carol remembered the horrors she’d committed, saw them flashing before her eyes as they did so often when Maddy closed her own.

Maddy drove through the night. She hadn’t forgotten his real name. She’d kept newspaper clippings from right after she’d taken him, kept track of the search for him. She knew where his family had moved when his real parents divorced. She supposed they couldn’t handle the sadness of it, losing their child.

Maddy suspected she wouldn’t be able to handle it either. But it didn’t matter. Carol’s body would be found soon, and Maddy would confess. She’d pay for her crimes like she deserved. That was fine with her. After she’d leave him at the doorstep of his mother’s house, she’d drive through the night and return to her bedroom, waiting for the police to come for her. There, she’d close her eyes in her own bedroom, and for once in her life, in the darkness, she’d see nothing at all.

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